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hailey ornduff's avatar

April is always tough. I just remind myself that every year!!

Priya's avatar

Heavy on the “Pitchfork rated Djo’s new album a 5.9. That pissed me off.” because they didn’t even give it a chance it’s suchhhh a good album

federica's avatar

This really hit home - that feeling of being trapped by your own "brand" or how others perceive you is so suffocating. I completely relate to overthinking how every little thing might be interpreted, especially when you're trying to balance being authentic with maintaining some version of yourself that feels "acceptable" to everyone around you.

But here's what I keep reminding myself (and what your friends helped you realize): at the end of the day, most people are way too caught up in their own lives to scrutinize our every move the way we think they do.

Sometimes we need to crash out in order to find our way back to what actually matters. Thanks for being brave enough to share the pissed-off list alongside all the beautiful moments - it makes the joy feel so much more real and earned.

Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

love this :))) thank you! thank you for reading!!!!!

~sindi~'s avatar

You gooo girl! This post really inspired me!! Subscribed 🤪

Gabby's avatar

You just described exactly how I’ve been feeling more clearly than I ever could. Thank you for sharing!

Olivia Jenkins's avatar

not to be dramatic but this has changed my life

Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

omg 😭 THANK YOU FOR READING !!!!

Grace Yu's avatar

I relate to this so much. Really hope things get better for us all!

Caroline Beuley's avatar

SHE’S BACK!! Sometimes we all need a month to crash out 😅 also I love love your outfits!!

Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

HII🤍 absolutely—and thank you!

Carole Kupper's avatar

DAMN sameeeeee, april is always my favourite (sorry September) but this year everything just sucked and i didn't want to write either and i wanted to let my little substack die too but then one little thing after the other, it got a tiny bit better. enough to make a list of things i did enjoy - like this article

Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

it's crazy how many people have shared the same sentiment—i don't know what it is but i'm glad we're all coming out of it <3 xx

nia montalvo's avatar

felt this so much

Lauren Powell's avatar

Also struggle with the out-of-work brand thing vs how I show up at the office. Good to know I am not alone in this!

AimeeSarahCarmichael's avatar

Absolutely loved this! Pissed off is such a fun way to describe things too. Also loved this line “I should stop worrying I might disappoint someone else before I end up disappointing myself. Wouldn’t that be tragic!” Because that is something I need to remind myself all the time

Evie's avatar

ur so back!!!!

Alice Lemee's avatar

Freaking loveeeee the way you started this essay had me lolling but also so relatable

Sandra Murzin's avatar

Love the nighttime picture of the string lights on the fire escape...so cool...💕

Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

thank you 🤍🤍 my old apartment

Fadumo Alimaad's avatar

April was such a heavy month for me too, but I’m glad I came across this post it touched me deeply. Some feelings felt more familiar than others.

Happy Fridayyyyy!

Angelina Hazzouri's avatar

ugh i feel that, we’re almost out of it!!! xx